1:43

It’s 1:43 and I can’t sleep no surprise there though my bedtime lately hasn’t been until three this whole week. I suppose it’s because I don’t want to go back to school, something I never thought I’d say. I spent my whole life just waiting till I was college dreaming of what life on my own would be like. Turns out it’s not as glamorous as my vivid imagination dreamt it would be. That’s no surprise though my imagination usually takes off running, creating scenarios that don’t have a chance in this world. Some I thank God never come true, and some I wish with all my might that they would.
It’s crazy how the minutes that were ticking by so slowly some how turn into warp speed and your watching your life go from slow and steady to leaving you in the dust. It scares the life out of me. I mean my world soon will not be the same things will never be the same and I am just wondering am I ready, and it doesn’t matter if I am it’s happening no matter what. It’s paralyzing that thought knowing that nothing I do will change fate’s hand. I don’t know I’m rambling, but it’s true my life is set speeding by and there’s nothing I can do. No moment I can change, and even if I could changing those moments would be selfish. I wouldn’t be considering other reactions just me and how I would feel. No it’s hard not to be selfish and look out for ourselves. After all it’s almost instinctual, but in the end what good does it do you?

No two persons …

No two persons read the same book
-Edmund Wilson

Lol I love books, and I love quotes that come from books even more. Well I pretty much love quotes in general. I can’t tell you why or what good it does to store random quotations in my brain. When I am sure there is much more pertinent knowledge that could be being stored, but I choose to store random useless quotes from usually random people. This quote I found profound because it is true when I read a book and my sister reads the same book our reactions and how it affects are different. Books are magic that for each person does something profoundly different. 

2014

So this is my first post EVER! That is technically not true, but it’s a new year so it’s a new me! Lots of things have changed, the biggest thing is the direction of my life. I currently am a student at NGU and I am a theater design major and I LOVE IT, but it’s not what I want to do with my life.. I thought that I could possibly use the knowledge that I learned from the costume shop to become a fashion designer, but I have since learned that’s not really an option. Since having this crucial discovery I have looked into transferring to a college who will support my dream and love of fashion. Liberty is where I am looking at going, and going from NGU to LU will be a huge life change for me. I will be living out of state I will be in a huge school and I will be doing what I love :). Even though this change won’t be happening till fall I know I need to start getting ready transferring is not a easy process and one I need to get a jump on..
Another big change is my big, awesome, crazy sister will be getting married in July :o! I am so happy and excited for her but it also makes me super sad!! This past Christmas we just ended a bunch of family traditions we shared, and I wish I had savored the moment a little bit longer than I did. I pretend like I can’t wait for her to be married, but truth is I am going to miss her so much. She is my best friend, my biggest supporter and no matter what she is always there. The guy she is marrying is an awesome guy, and I know he knows how lucky he is to get her so it truly is bitter sweet 😦 :). The wedding I know will be perfect as my sister is major OCD. I can’t wait to stand by her side and watch her start a new exciting part of her life!
I really am excited to see what 2014 holds. Changing colleges, and my sister getting married it’s not going to be a dull year! Well for right now that is all I have to say 🙂

Love you lots
REXY

me and my sister (MY best friend!)

me and my sister (MY best friend!)