What am I doing

So I just felt the need to shout into the void tonight. It’s been one of the roughest years I’ve weathered thus far. Moving states switching majors the whole time wondering if I’m adequate, fighting doubts and fear that always seem to creep up on me. Here they are again screaming and yelling telling me who did you think you could kid, you are talentless, you have no skill, what are you going to do with the rest of your life. It just hits you, you think this isn’t so bad, then bam everything in your head wants to know how you ever thought you could? I mean I’m surrounded by super talented people and then there’s me, I don’t fit in here I don’t fit in there, I suck at well everything. I often joke is quitting an option, but I don’t know how… Why did I come back this is why I left. I just want to feel like I’m doing something right for a change and not constantly screwing up. One of these days I keep telling myself I’ll get it right, one of these days I’ll know, but I don’t know and 20 what the hell. I just keep hoping there will be a sign and I’ll be like yeah obviously, but no there isn’t so I’m stuck wondering and left annoyed and depressed, and when I try to talk to people I just get more depressed! I don’t know let me know what you think, I need help.

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2 comments

  1. Nomad · March 28, 2015

    Keep your head up. Do what makes you happy. Success is subjective. Achievements are real and tangible, and I know you are capable. Realistically the world doesn’t consider talent, it’s about being in the right place at the right time, it’s about who you know not what you know. So I say if you’re doing what you love, then just love what you do. Don’t ever let the world tell you that you’re inadequate. Don’t give up!

  2. krex94 · June 8, 2015

    You won’t see this, but I thought of you the other day..

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